One Friday morning, while I was writing someone, I opened my phones gallary and found a brand new recent photograph of you baby. :-) Shock : Your hair was longer, your face was a little bit older, and you looked so happy and on your face I could see that you knew this picture was being taken for your mama. Where did this photo come from ? It was brand new, I had never seen it before and it was bright, so bright. You were wearing your favourite "Hello Kitty" T shirt with a crisp white vest underneath it. My heart melted and my mind was shocked, I couldn't understand, but I was so happy to see you again. I wanted to share the photo with the world, I would show it to every one and ask questions later, but ............. when I tapped on it, it was gone, I couldn't find it again, not even with special software. Joy : The joy that filled my heart when I saw that image of you baby :-). It was you Michaela, you NOW at this moment. I knew then that you were allright and that you were missing me and somehow my messages were reaching you and you knew mama misses you. You looked happy in the picture, this made my heart so glad, baby was smiling. And your hair :-) I could see tiny waves, someone had braided it for you, didn't they ? Now it was hanging loose and it looked healthy and shiny and another thing I had noticed ... the edges of your hair was cut straight, someone had also cut your hair. Were the Angels styling your hair baby ? Because you know how Mama loved to comb it and play with your gorgeous hair, and you used to say "cut my hair" and I would say, "noooo, I don't want, I love your hair it's beautiful". Looks like sweetheart got her wish, someone cut your hair, but only the edges :-) Mommy loves it sweetiepie, it looks good. Sadness : I couldn't find the picture again :-( I wanted to look longer, I wanted to keep it, but if it's all I could get then please know baby I LOVED IT and I apprecaited it and it did make me feel a little bit better. And I told your daddy about it too, and yes I keep checking my phone now to see if you sent another sweetface. I love you sweetheart and if you are getting my messages baby, here is another one sweetiepie; You're all around me (Percy Sledge) You're all around me, your sweet love surrounds me And your gentle voice still lingers on and on You're everywhere, your tender love and care Still remain on everything and everyone you touched Here you are gone, but your goodness still stays on And I thank you for these precious memories for without them, it ain't worth living And I think about the love you have given and it's almost as if you are right her in the room with me Ek is so baie baie baie liefie vir jou sussie :-*